Do the stressed, pouty dance

So... it's another late night here in Boston. I manage to procrastinate just enough on the right things that lead me to stress, panic, and start chewing on my own hair. Last spring, I pulled an all-nighter. This spring, I do late nights, not enough sleep... on a rather regular basis. Healthy? I think not. But now let me do my stressed, pouty dance. (Why it's pouty? Who knows. I just feel like pouting, sulking, what have you. Let's just chalk up the pouting to: I'm tired and shouldn't have procrastinated so long.) Btw my boyfriend is sweet and delivered pretzels, Diet Coke, and Chex Mix to me as I freaked, whined, and pouted. I wonder why he puts up with my insanity, cuz it must be like dating a 4 year old sometimes.

I'm taking this biostatistic computer programming class. Learn biostats while you learn how to speak computer-speak. OMG. The best thing ever. NOT. I am the Asian that is incompetent when it comes to technology. I missed the boat on that gene... Thanks parents.

Oh right, I sprained my ankle last Monday. Now you might ask: how'd you do that? Well, you see, it's a funny story:

• I'm walking home (I made a quick trip home to see my mom- sorry I didn't see any of my Midwest lovers, but I spent my time with the fam) from the airport, pulling my luggage behind me. I'm thinking: I'm hungry, I need to work out this week, I'm REALLY going to start working out regularly. Then BAM. I'm on the ground. Rolled the ankle. I'm in so much pain I can't catch my breath. I sit down on the concrete sidewalk. Whimper. Cry. No one's around to see me. I can see my apartment building door like 20 feet away. Then a guy in a wheelchair rolls up. "Are you okay? Do you need me to get help?" I manage a I'm okay, I'm okay. He goes: I would help you myself... but I can't. I don't know about you but now looking back, I giggle a little. The one person who sees me is the one person who can't physically help me. Anyway, eventually he rolls away and I grit my teeth and hobble to my apartment. I then proceed to 1) call my mom and cry, 2) sit on the floor until my boyfriend arrives to help me, 3) stare at my other leg which is bleeding excessively from the knee. So yes, I'm the most graceful creature out there.
• And if you're concerned about me (which you probably aren't but that's okay, I understand): I'm doing better these days but I still have a bit of a hobble.

I have discovered the wonders of Sephora. It's fun. It's like a playground. I can't afford anything but looking and touching is still wonderful. It's drawing me in. It has put its spell on me. Too bad I'm still disabled and don't know how to put makeup on like all the pretty girls do.

Jobs. I need to find a job after graduation. Sigh. What if I can't find one and become a homeless person? Will you let me live with you?

Baby shoes are the cutest things ever. Teeny! But also the most impractical things. Actually baby socks are probably the most impractical. Shoes are next. Because: a baby is in the stroller. Kicks off sock or shoe. Has now lost one! There is no longer a pair. All that money you just spent on a pair of shoes. Gone. Just a thought.

I have nothing more to say at the moment since it is closing in on 3:30am and I desperately need sleep in order to make words become coherent sentences tomorrow in class. So I will close with this: I want to go back to Uganda because the weather here in New England is just not not not NOT okay.

A lazy Sunday which really shouldn't be that lazy

Current Fav Study Jams:
Kid Cudi's "Pursuit of Happiness" and "Make Her Say"
Wang Lee Hom's "Hua Tian Cuo" and "Wei Yi"
Miike Snow's "Animal," "Black and Blue," and "In Search Of"

Okay, here's the thing, I was supposed to study all weekend and get as much Health Law and Medical Systems information into my head as possible. That hasn't happened. Instead... I am applying to go to Malawi for a year, made a new friend, and found some great new jams. I am in serious trouble. But I am not that worried. I've come to the conclusion that I'm just not going to care about grades as much this semester. It is what it is. I need to enjoy life along with school and if that means not getting straight A's... I think I'll live.

Extreme dislike: people who can't understand that girls and boys can just be friends without any desire for anything more. Just because you're of the opposite sex, it doesn't mean you guys are going to go at it like rabbits automatically. Friendship- there is such a thing between girls and guys.

PS Texts from last night- great reading for procrastination. And makes you laugh uncontrollably.

Snow Snow oh the Snow

There is nothing I do better than procrastinate. And that's what I'm currently doing. I have discovered a mad obsession with a Spanish CD. I have no idea what the name of the CD is. But I feel like the current song is talking about colors... or maybe not. My Spanish is oh so bad. So I have no idea what the singers are saying. But I'm okay with that.

It snowed. Oh yes. The East Coast got dumped on by the Snow Bunny, just like the Midwest did a while ago. And through the Snow Bunny, I ventured to get to work this morning. Except I walked around with a happy grin on my face as I jumped through snow drift after snow drift. All I could think of was: SNOOOOWWWW!!! While everyone walking around me looked like they wanted to kill someone. To me, it is finally winter and Christmas time.

I am almost done. ALMOST. One more final to plow through. Bleh... If I could work up the motivation to study, we'd probably be in business. Since I don't have that motivation, I'm thinking about going to bed. Bad idea? Yes, I know.

Current Favs:
Tea: Harney & Sons Paris. LOOOOOOVE
CD: You know, this Spanish one
Food: Rice Noodles- yes, I'm Asian. Deal with it.
Hair-do: Bed head hair. Leave as is post wake-up.
Outfit: GIANT Wisconsin sweatshirt, pink Wisconsin sweatpants, pink/yellow/white striped fuzzy socks. Yes I match.
Class: All the ones that are officially over
Work: I really kind of really like my job at the store. Selling things is fun. Helping people is fun.

HAPPY SNOW BUNNIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finals and things

In grad school, there are still these silly annoyances called Finals and Exams. I have to take a few. Write a few papers. Do all that scholarly stuff to prove I've learned something this semester. Honestly, I could care less right now. And my studying has proven to reflect my feelings. I have this problem... it's called procrastination. Even at the last minute, I still can't get the urge to study for one of my finals. Ahhh well. That's okay. I'll be fine. Plus Grades Don't Matter. Right?! Yep, that's what I thought.

In my procrastination adventures, I have found the texts from last night website very amusing. I also like to download music and seek out new artists. Currently, I love Anjulie. Her song "Rain," I love. "Boom" is pretty fun too. I also spend quality time on celebrity websites. It is unfortunate that they live under these microscopes... but it is for my pleasure and procrastination, so I can't help but enjoy it.

I fly back to the wonderful Midwest in 6 days. Yippee!! I will be seeing all my wonderful lovelies soon enough. I cannot wait to be able to sleep for a straight 18 hours without getting disturbed. Okay... Dumb-dumb might bug me a little, but I can handle her. (Yes, that's what I call our cat.) I can't wait to go home.

Très bien, merci

Remember my list of goals? It's been a while, so let's assess:

1. Do well in school- I'm working on it!
2. Job- still searching, don't want to talk about it.
3. The languages: I found a way to tackle my challenging hopes for language learning. iTunes podcasts!!!!! Yea, pretty awesome. So right now, I've got some French and Arabic going on. Currently listening to a French one. I have no idea how to spell anything- I got the title from a French phrases website. And as of right now, that's all I can say. But I'm working on it! Impressive, huh? 
4. I joined a club on campus called Rotaract. I've been able to meet lots of people through it and I like it. Woohoo, I'm involved in school!
5. Still working on going abroad next year
6. Positivity? I'm still working on that one...
7. I'm super off on one of my W's and don't have one W at all. So... that goal is sucking a bit. BUT I promise to work on it

I have a test on Wednesday that I should be studying for, but I don't want to. I'm procrastinating again. The other day I had a dream that I was at an acupuncturist and had needles stuck all on my back. Super weird and creepy dream to have. Then last night I had a dream that I was watching people I know have sex. Very strange and unnecessary. I woke up and wanted to rip my eyes out. Not a pleasant way to wake up. I think being in the sickness coma and medicating myself when I go to bed is causing some weird dreams.

Au revoir!

Hmm...

I love:

The movie Pride and Prejudice with Keira Knightley
The smell of rain
Cuddling with someone I love

I have a love/hate relationship with:

Ice cream, pizza, and lots of other junk food (because it tastes so good but makes me fat)
Airports (it means I'm traveling to go somewhere, but I kind of hate them)
Cranberry juice (it goes well with vodka but it also goes well treating a UTI and stains my clothes)

I have 3 papers to write and no motivation. It seems to be the theme.

PS: Flamenco music is p.r.e.t.t.y. cool

Twiddling My Thumbs

It's hard to do work when you have absolutely no desire to do it. This is my issue right now. I have managed to waste at least a day and a half... procrastinating so much. I think I've checked facebook way too much. It's very unhealthy. I have also managed to think that Britney Spears' new song "3" is kind of catchy. Too bad I still have 3 papers to write. This could be a problem.

Bounce thoughts, Bounce

I bought a dress I can't afford today. I can't afford it because I have no money. But I love the dress. So I bought it. But who knows when I'll actually wear it because 1) it's kind of fancy 2) I need to lose weight to look better in it 3) I don't have anyone I feel the need to impress here.

I don't like doing homework. I procrastinate constantly.

I'm really full right now... Garlic bread pizza is awesome. But now I want a beer.

Glow in the Dark condoms... I find them an interesting invention (not that I have recent experience)... it would be like a light saber... think about it.

I painted my toenails red. I think painted toenails are cuter than non-painted toenails.

I need to work out more. I want to run a 10K.